Thanks for all the kind, uplifting comments.
Although it was all a shock on Saturday, I'm coming to terms with it and she's saved more pain.
Right now I'm off to get my hair chopped off - embracing the hair loss and my inability to find time for hair styling with two kids. We're off for a clan gathering in York this weekend - where Esme is sure to get much bouncing and passing around between rellies. These days she gives us full blown gusty laughs, v endearing.